Felicia Learning in NIE

Friday, September 17, 2004

Sleepy

Woah.... This has been a wonderful week, it is not called school experience for nothing :)
Well... hmmm...... heee I have learnt so much that it is really hard to put into words... its the experience....

Well....within this week I have taught in 3 classes already... going for my fouth and last one today.... Practice makes perfect..... thats the most important tool....

The first lesson was bad for me... I assumed so much that at the end of the lesson, I was blurred and I think the students were blurred too... hehee lesson plans really dun work huh .... The mood of the students matter more.. I feel.... I assumed that they knew this and that, and it was suppose to be a revision class to I gave them all the information, teaching them the formations of river landforms, channels characteristics, the input of the chart and so on... all in 1 hour... hheee obviously.. information overload..... :)

The 2nd got better and by the time it came to the 3rd... hahaa... I think i got the hang of it..

The teachers who asked me to teach were really kind, they took down notes and told me where I went wrong and where I could improve...I am really grateful to them!

The best experience I had was to observe this class which is like..hmmm the terror..... haa it was....Three of us were in that class, and there were only around 35 students.... They were talking, chating, listening to discman, reading newspapers, er... throwing blue tack towards the board.... heheee and....hmmmm playing football...hahha that was really interesting... really really.... so class !!! Our practice session is rather accurate... and guess what... at the end of the lesson....one of the boys gave me a cockoroach and the other CUT my hair :)

Okie... once i think its funny... I wonder how... hee hee if I am made form teacher of that class.... Passion i think :) They are really challenging .. and they are only sec 3

Right...one last tip i thought was important... Mrs. Tan told us that at the end of a test paper, she puts there ... expected marks... and asked the students to grade themselves at the end of their paper... interesting.. then the students become more aware of what they do.....


What i learnt most is.... Be nice, be kind, compassionate, caring, concerning, sincere.... but have to be firm and state expectations :)

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Lucky girl!

I totally enjoyed my day at my school :)

geog...
I met the most intersting goeg teacher.... its is really hard to describe waht she did and hard for pp to understand how I feel towards her... coz its sincerity!!! you feel it,.... you cant see it or read it...

When she was teaching...she was really engaging the students.. she probes them for answers.. blar blar...

The school is just as wonderful..... the P and VP both spent time to meet us, got to know us individually... shared with us their experience....what kind of students to let lose, what kind to be firm... how to treat the parents... what kind with what method...They even told us,,, during school experience... we have to observe class mangement, and practicum, pay attention to the lesson and content :) I am very thankful about that.

Something very intersting I observe for classroom management,... the school has a class diary for each class... each teacher is suppose to log in whose in class, how many and not the bad behaviours of students or warning... so they becomes a written prove for any form of problems and admin hmmm...

oh yes... i learnt something in this school as well... if you want something... go and get it... like there is not much interaction we have with the hod IT.... when i apporached him, he took us around the school and even answered the report we have to do....

I was given all express classes... i told them that I would like to see some normal or T classes,... immeidately they told me to relief them...

I told them that I want to see how English is taught.... they immideately agreed.... hmmm....Is every school like that? ...It is really nice to know that schools are getting more advance.. and open...

Haa,,, liked the school so much... i stayed from 6am to 6pm today :) hahaha cool huh... and who says passion is not important? That is the torch,,, the light and the way! Good night!

Monday, September 13, 2004

My first day at school

haahaa... I was actually excitied, nervous at school today!!!!

But I learnt alot....

Lit....
Well... same subject.. taught by different teachers... the results are so different!!!!
One teacher divided the story into 6 parts... told the story, went through the text, divided the class into 6 groups and told them to come up with their own scripts and told them to act it out...there were no guiding, no pushing, but the class just came alive and worked it out... it was not professional.. but sure it was fun.... i enjoyed it.. so did the class every one was laughing....

This teacher is 7 months pregant!!! she walks around with that heavy tummy... she was not commical... very prim and proper.. but the class totally enjoyed the lesson.. there were so much engaging... and interaction and exploring. I enjoyed totally as well.

The class was very good, creative... the witches' cloaks were changed into lady macbeth's gown... and the banquo's scene was very well done as well!!!

This is normal academic class... so what was the is rummor about normal students being slower?

Okie the next class.... hmmm it was an express class... hmmm a one hour long lesson, guess what we did!!! The teacher... put a transpancy on the OHP, and said," let's write an esaay."

And she wrote the eassy... told the class to copy it exactly.... for an hour!!! :)

Hmmm both.. lit... teachers.... hhaaa

So what is the reaction of the class>... perfect silence.... all copying... not sure what they had learnt.. but I had problems keeping awake.. hehehee... cool huh!!! two perfect contrast within 1 day on the same subject....

I thought the school was really kind.. they really tried to put me into every class possible.... and when i requested to teach... they allowed me to... hehhee.. now i am kinda panicking....

I was given all express class.. and I thought my life wouldnt be so good.... hehhee so i requested for the school to put me into a normal or a technical class.. and immediatly... they gave a class to me.. I think the school is really kind....

Anyway.... i worked my butt off today.,.. hehhee,.. didint have a break at all.. but hehe thats clas i kapo... wanted to sit in everything possible... alright.. will up date about the geog class tomorrow... :)

Sunday, September 12, 2004

My laptops up

Cool~ my laptops up....

I am so excited... durng this week end, I had my laptop set up, wireless done.... hehehe now i feel connected hehehhehe

Alright I am down counting my days towards the drama exam... this is exciting as well, I heard that my examiner is a professor in Theatre studies,,, cool ! have lots to learn from her....

HAAA,, guess what I took my laptop and was sufing the net with my K2 children.... looking and seraching on their authors and poets... they were excited ,, so was I ....


Tomorrow is my school experience week.. I though first toa payoh was rather sweet, they gave me all lit, geog, eng and hist classes to observe... accorrding to some of my other class mates, they have to sit into physic classes as well....

This set me thinking,... will I be put into a history class to teach? ops! poor students then.. my hist is really bad... hhehee

I am really excited tomorrow.. not sure what this excitment is all about.. hahah I feel like a primary one kid getting ready for school... :) had my skirt and shrit ironed out... packed my handbag and pencil case.,.. haahaaa

never been so happy with the way life have been... though i was tired and really tired... but i enjoyed every moment... happy : O )

that is y i always tell pp... follow your interest... no matter how difficult times may be you will still enjoy and cont.. cos.. they passion is there"_


Monday, September 06, 2004

Learning still

Hmm... just came out of an re-en actment of my past......

I am also not sure why I became that 'rebelious' girl in class today..... not sure why I decided to use the F*** lang in class....But I thought Sukhairan handled me pretty well.... he was firm and I was taken aback...I am not sure why I pushed futher... may be because I want to see his reactions... I would not have know wat to do ..... I wanted to see and learn from him I guess....

I did stand up and scolded my teacher during assembly when I was in sec 2. I was very very mad with her... She often picked on me in class, saying that my grades are not good enough for a monitress, she even called me at home to ask me to step down (Monitress was a voting system then) And she comes to class and calls me incorrigible ..... Really for no reason.... One day, I got really mad, she scolded me for not bowing my head during prayers time ... and infront of the school she call me a lousy monitress... I took it as a person attack, stood up and said, "F*** you! you are the abhorrible one. What kind of F******* teacher are you?" Yup, I seriously challenged her... she was trembling... so was I... silly as I was and immature at that time... I thought... I dun care even if I were to get sack from school but enough! Well..she told me to stop..I didnt, in front of the school I screamed at her.. and of cos... I was getting hysterical... :) So today was a rather mild form.....

Recalling that incident... I wonder what would I do if a student does that to me... or what if a student really just wanted to pick a fight with me? Anyway.. I was sent to the dicipline.. of cos where else could I go? Luckily for me, I explain the entire story, the other sweet teacher listened, understood and told me to apologise to rest the matter... hmmm... But what if I didnt want to give in?

Ken said something that touched me rather deep today... rather he had said a few times.... 'sincerity' It is so true... even when I was a student, I didnt care where my teacher came from,.... what they were teaching.. what they wanted to teach... all I need to know is that they care.....cared... that is why i would still call my primary school teacher till today.. cos she cared... i became a teacher because of teachers like them... i loved chinese because of her... i loved geog because these teachers have touched me in one way or another... noble this sound may sound....but somehow ... I feel that we have got no other more powerful tools then our passion and sincerity in wanting out students to learn.....

Hmm... ponder ponder.... :) hehee there seems light near the end of this tunnel huh.....

Anyway... i enjoyed my lit class today..... for a long time I was deprived of 'lesson' and things to learn... well i did today and I am happy :) There were lots of lesson tips like how to do story map, points of narration... blar blar... I guess I just want to feel that I have learnt something... I am also not sure why am I so thristy to learn these days... never been like that... anyway...

Oh another interesting thing... I am so glad the poems were so to speak 'put down' today... i so agree... dunt... dunt ever use poems, and plays just beacuse a teacher wants to have variety in teaching...!!!! I hate it... as much as I hated my MOE interview... when they told me that I could be creative... making one student a molten rock and the other a sedimentary rock.. so that they can feel wat it is like to be ROCKS!!!!! whatever for? I had been wondering,... how could pp from MOE... principals think of such creative ideas?????

There must be a reason in everything that we do.. it is just like acting and staging a play.. you do not get the actor to walk across the stage beacuse he wants to.... but he has to know why he is doing it .. and for what... what effects does he want? what does he want his audience to know... it the same for the teacher... why she is using this material? What will it do for the students... .....

Morning world :)

Yups... Its 3 30 am and I am suppose to be up at 5 :) ops!

Hmmm.. just read through my last posting... gosh! so many grammar mistakes ... hmmmm :)

Spoke to my fav primary school teacher just now on the phone...waoh! she has been teaching for 30 years! And she still loves it! I loved her too.... she is always positive... funny.... willing to accept new ideas, explantion... maybe that is why I remember her so dearly ....

She said something that reminded me .... What ever a parent does to a teacher, we should never take it out on the child... Hmmmm.... I was a victim of it... some of my pri school teachers.. kinda didnt liked me cos my dad was too vocal in school.. they sure took it out on me... had some rough patches.. moved on and have forgotten.... And then after hearing .. i suddenly realise... I am like that at times too... I was teaching drama a few years back... this parent confronted me and told the other parents saying that her child learns nothing from me.. coz he doesnt remember what I had taught... really took it personally... after that, i made the child repeats the lesson's objectives and whatever that he had learnt after every lesson... when he cants.. I made him repeat it till he remembers... make sure he kept his notes, and constantly picked on him to question him... i sure dislike him.. and i m rather sure he disliked me as well.... and gosh... he was only 6 :( how.. horrible.... how horrible....

How can I do it to the innocent one when i knew how it feels when i was a victim?

Went for the geog gathering... it is interesting... totally enjoyed the debated Dr Yeung had with the other teachers... recalled my days in NUS with him... suddenly I realise... there is something different about him (at least to me) he is open with his thoughts... he tells... just like my pri school teacher. .... They both have this similarity.... if you have something to say and can prove me wrong.. tell me I am willing to hear... i may not agree but I want to hear....hmmm this is one trade I want to learn... to accept others ideas...

He also mentioned that we (singaporeans) are good with aplication.. but not invention ... that is true! will at least to me.... I have been teaching drama close to 7 years! hmmm never seem to have invented much style huh.... I may be good with puting up with end of year productions and streets performaces for students... but when it comes to teaching.. i steal my methodologies from London, from Aust teaching style, never by myself????? I read up, look at the trend... then copy what ever that comes along... one book says.. starts from improvisation.. i start one class in that manner.. the other book says... from poem.. the next class does from that.... May be that is why I feel stagnanet now...

Gosh.. talkin about that..... I have been really stressed up... this is my final paper.. for my drama... gosh.. been doing this course for like the past 15 years... it is finally completing.....Liecentate in Speech and Drama... from Trinity College... hehhee how does it sound? cool right.... okie... its hard work... n yes I fear not passin..and dragging on....but I must do it... end it... came so far.. cannot give up...... :) Cant express that relief... the pride... the excitment... but I am pretty drain by now... kinda not coping with time... waking up at 5 to go NIE... ending at 5pm then rush to teach to clock in hours for the paper.. then rush to class to do my pieces.. then rush home to do papers... till like now...3 am? ??? hmmmm.... Lord...bless me with the wisdom and strength to go on and to plan my time better...

Talking about drama... I just wonder... will i ever get the chance to teach it? :) That would be nice..... this year... I have to miss the drama congress going to be ehld in aust....cos... NIE..I missed the international drama educators congress in Canada...already.. because of NIE as well....... :( Hmmmm.... well :) just recalling the things we did in the last congress... it rather cool actually..... used one of the tips during my lit class.. hehhee the lecturer took my tranparancy, used it as a summary of her class... how convient for her :) well then i guess it shows that it is of some quality... heeh hhee :) whatever....

It is rather intersting actually... instead of the usual analyse this and that,,, then wirte it down... we actually drew a picture of a stick man....read a short story.. then what ever others say about a chosen character... you put it around the stick man.... what ever actions he does.... write them into his hands... what ever he thinks... you put it in his head... and so on.... the picture explains... inner thoughts... chacterisation very well.......actually there are so many intersting ways to teach lit..... okie... thats my job... :)

I have always thought that teaching is rather generic....if you can teach a you can teach b,c, d... but somehow ever since i entered nie... hmmm doesnt seem that way.... I wanted to incorporate what I have learnt in drama into geog... somehow it doesnt fit.... then I though to myself....
1. I m not farmiliar with geog yet.
2. I m not reading enough on both geog and drama to combine it... cos I am sure drama can do it since it is so versatile...
3. OPS! I m jus not creative enough....
4. I am not thinking hard enough.....


Then again... hmmm how? Role play? one to be a rock.. another student to be another rock? let the third be the river that flows through? This is neither role play nor geog....

I actually wanted to do a poem ..... but ... hmmmmm it sort of dun fit.... as it is... students are put of by poems... me too... till only recently. i changed my ideas aobut geog...

I really want to do something about it... i have to... combine them in some way... i really believe that it will make the geog lesson so much better.... k right after about my drama exams... I am seriously going to do it... and find means :) I started loving geog when my teacher took out plastercine, compressed them.. then told me... this is how fold mountains are formed... hahah I was so so excited by it,,, dun understand y.. but that tha was so cool! so understanable...... and fell in love with the subject... Well.... time for me to come out with something like that :)

My tution kid broke down at my place... i was so shocked... she is a new student.... seen me only 4 times..... and she broke down crying that she is very stressed with work... poor girl... i did that too.. remembered so clearly....anyway. i was supposed to teach her english... when she realised I will be teaching geog.. so asked for help.... hmmmm gave her a big picture-overview about agriculture... that is a primary industry....where by you can classifly the types of farming into .....input.. processs....output... she told me that she have never seen it that way. and said that I helped a lot....... hmmmmm and she is sitting for this years o levels....arent thoes basic???? she doesnt seem like thoes who doesnt pay attention in class... and it is not possible that her teacher hasnt told her what i have said and she should have read her text books... so waht happened?..anyway... it felt good helping her...

Oh during my French lesson... tot my new french teacher wrote so smally.... i could see a thing... and he wrote in red... it was so so so so difficult to see... ARgh.... Tat reminds me... my handwriting sucks... hhaha i cant read them myself ... at times... i beta do something about it.... this is real funny... i am so so embrassed by my own handwriting I went to take up a handwriting course.... spent a good ten days writing my abc again... well it helped a little.. but yes its still bad... hehhee and yes I must remember.. no red.. or as little red as possible.. its hard to read!

I also realise taht comical teachers are always nice to have.... jovial... funny... intersting..... my french teacher was real funny .... funny with style :) so was my pri teacher... they are very frim pp.... they make sure you do your work... hand them on time.. listens to class.. but they are really funny..... even when you make mistakes... they managed to make the class laugh.. but you are not embrassed and ya... you learnt as well :) And rule no. 1 NEVER laugh at your own joke... no 2... NEVER... giggle to yourself.... you really like silly.... cos I have met teachers who laugh to themselves/at themselves!And yup the lesson becomes worse....this is an aquired skill... and somehow.. to do that.. hmmmm..... i think it starts with the enjoyment and passion for teaching... so... hmmm it is not true that 'its the passion teachers who burns out all the time' as what some lecutures have said in NIE :(


The most ideal thing is to pass on both the passion and the technicalities which help pp to pass. But with limited time and rescourse.. which would you pass on? I dunno ... have always thought you should pass on the passion... let the students like the subject frist... when they have interest... learning will be so much easier....by then without you they have the paassion to move on..... hmmm but some totaly disagree... what if you get the students to like the subject.. but they just do not have the tools to score in them? It was a real wet blanket when some lectures said that.....so am i too idealistic? I am not saying that a student should go gaga over a subject.. but can you imagine... you are taught imagery, metaphors... purpose for cultivation, adv disave of tourism.... you just memorised them reproduce them during exams and hate them for the rest of your life.. cos they completely mean nothing! I really dunno....then again.. yes... some pp likes the subject but just cant score in them... so?


I am rather curious wat kind of teacher will I become..... come to think of it... reallly wonder... how much of our lesson plans can we use... and will we really have the time to set thoes plans? okie... my mind in wondering.... it 440...beta sleep soon!

Good morning ..................yawn ....

Thursday, September 02, 2004

Time is a real issue

I have never been more busy ... never!

There are so much to learn ..... so much....

There are so much to say, to recall, to record, never had the time ...

This has been a tiring week... a real tiring week ....

HMMM... blogger seems like a good idea, to record my things, my learning..and reflections...

What I enjoyed most during this week is about my PED 514 class .... while leading the class through our presentation on equality I learnt alot and reflected alot .... and I really hope I will continue reflecting so that I can keep track of my teaching and methodology. Reflection is indeed important.....

What I learnt this week .... Assumption .... Sometimes, we assume that others understands us... e.g. .... During Geog presentation, though we were given our roles.... our backgrounds... lots of other things had been assumed.... though we were told that we are suppose to know the rules in class and know how to behave... some wat I was not sure... true, this is just a 'practice' session... but such assumption did course confusion, and the class did get noiser and more rowdy.... And thinking back, during my presentation, I assumed that the four girls had left the class, while they assumed that they were still in it.. hence... there was confusion.

With this in mind, with all the movement of IT, creative learning.... are we assuming that everyone has the access to these resources easily? For example, nie sends out emails.. lots and lots of emails... important ones for our experience week.... and I was thinking.. what if I come from a really poor family whoes one and only computer has spoilt and missed that lecture.. and we are threaten with a pay cut for not attending? Is the school assuming that we all are 'rich' enough to own a computer?

I was jus thinking to myself... there are so many notice boards around.. all of them filled with information for all sorts of activities.. but not notices to inform us of such news.... Not only that, I sat through many tutorials and lots of them are presented with interesting and beautiful power point... but the point is such fancinating visuals are distracting our (or at least my) attention. For example, a group classmates was doing a powerpoint to teach lit.... and they came out with colourful pictures, in the end, the class became more interested in where they got the pictures from rather then the lesson plans itself.... in that case, are we missing out the whole point of using a powerpoint? Anyway... this IT thingy is a big issue to me... yes and I know I have to advance myself with it... :(

The other point that I have learnt..... As teachers.. we have our ideal... our aims... our standards... we expect students to reach a certain level... I feel that we should let students know that level.... For example... During one of my classes... we have to present lots of things.. it is always group work.. presentation.. blar blar... the lecturer have never commented much about the presentations.. excepts... the visuals are nice.... or... interesting... And after that, we all just hand in our assignments... the lesson was wrapped up...and all was said,"We have rounded up this session!" I thought to myself.... I travel... EVERYDAY 2.5 hrs to BOONLAY... sit in a 1.5 hr lecture hoping to learn some tips on teaching so that I am prepared for the real school then hmmmm I end up listening to endless persentation.. without debriefs without out really dissucing what everyone has does... better still... I handed in the assignment... went through the presentation.. and I am still not sure what I did was good or no good, right or not right... best or can be improved :) SO.. What have I learnt ? I really dunno... Yes I am very very irriatated... This is exactly like O and A levels... you just write your answers... hand it in.,.. get a mark and enver know where you went right or wrong....And that makes me remind myself.. If I should ever gives projects or presentation.. I have to make sure I give a good review.... or feedback to my students :)

And yes.. readings....I was given some readings... what happen was... hmmm... the lectuer only asked... what do you like most about the reading? .... Did you do the readings? And that was about it!!!!! Then wat is the point of going though those readings? ... I hate it.. its like going through the motion... LOOK! I know I am new to this force.. I still have lots of passion.. aspirations... ideals... dreams what have you.. but I really think.. this profession is really about giving... should I ever lose this passion.. and find myself going through the motion.. I should QUIT! :) And dun waste my student's time...ARgh... okie I think I had hard and long day.. but yes... today... I completely wasted my time!!!!! Not only we didnt discuss the reading.... We went thought the tranparency LINE by LINE!!!! Good ness! I can forgive my lectuers in the uni for doing so... I can forgive my teacher in sec for doing so.. but not TEACHERS who are traning teachers!!!! I can read.. and I do suspect that I have a rather good comprehension ability.. so if the entire lecture is about reading off some old 30yr old looking tranparancy from the OHP, let me photocopy them and read them at home.. dun make me travel across the island for such a usless activity....

Gosh... argh... haa come to think of it.. this blogger is kind of cool :) At least I am venting these out.. and yup being sacastic is something I have aquired along the way.. didnt realise that I am doing it while teaching as well.. so I should change this part huh ....

Anyway I am really excitied about the experience week... waht am I to do? I really hope I can learn alot there... ... well.... :)

Okie.. time to sleep.... its 1230 am ... and what... i have to wake at 5 am... to travel ..hopfully to a fruitful class :( I have really no time... sigh... life? Used to be able to visit my piano teacher on today every year.. didnt even manage to call her this yr... :( Happy teachers' day Miss Lee :)